28th of June 2009

hey there...sorry to all of my follower...since long time ago i've updated my blog..the reason for that is nothing special have come on to me for the past week...hope you guys understand..=)

just now i just went out with 2 of my 姐妹..because yesterday we have planned to go for movie...'TRANSFORMER" but it doesn't go well...we planned to take dinner together after the movie...but unfortunately we didn't..i don't get to know the reason..because some one was arguing on that moment..you both know who you are..better behave yourself and treat each other better...XD the movie was quite funny and really exiting...won't regret seeing it...for those who haven't watch please faster get on yr shoe and go to your nearest cinema for it..LOL...XP

days without you goes better...if you r my follower and likes to read what i wrote...i just wanna say sorry for deleting you on my FS, FB and also MSN's friends' list...if you got anything wanna ask or need my help...just add me back..i won't ignore your request...after all we had told each other after the last few arguement... can't be couple doesn't mean our friendship end on that moment...=) hope you'll understand what i mean...

17th of June 2009

finally i can no need to think of you everyday...i've put down our things...but the shocking rumours from my friends is sawing u holding hands with another guy on the 2nd holiday week...which has just past...if u really have loving anyone you can tell me straight away...no need to make us misunderstand so many things..you know what i mean...anyway...hope you'll be happy with him...and also hope he'll love and care bout you more than i did...=)

school reopen...have to wake up like usual...that's 5.30 in the morning...urghh...didn't get enough sleep at all..and now i'm sick...cough, soar throat and also cathcing slu...T.T please b well soon..the sooner, the better...T.T but 1 thing i'm gland to go to school....chit chatting with my friends..unfortunately my result on the mid-year exam is not so good at all...so far i just pass 3 subject...hope i can pass half of the amount of subjects that i take..=)

i've just exchanged my mobilephone with my dad...nw i'm using SAMSUNGI900 A.K.A OMNIA...=) more like it than my old HTC DAIMOND....but my father is going to sell it to his friend...tomorrow stil need to take the DAIMOND to my uncle's place to reboot it to the newest version of the original HTC firmware...

11st of June

today i'm very happy...recieving my 1st present...the watch that i like TITUS...from my dear cousin..."THANK YOU" XD last nitez i already went to 1BORNEO and saw that watch...cnt imagine just after 1 day i can have that watch..i really love it very much...hope next time can share it with you guys...=)

my floating day stil continue like last few days...but luckily tomorrow i'm going for my blood test...^^ maybe after that i can know what are really happening to me...=) hope nothing else when the report has been given to me...

hey...sorry for my friends that tomorrow are going to K.K HALL for basketball...i can't go because of my blood test..next time we can play together again...hope will be soon...XP

9th of June 2009

after last night's chatting...finally know the truth...i must move on...i had deleted you in my msn contact, friendster and also in facebook...this way i can totally forget bout you...even those image of your's in my phone i also had deleted...hope i can really forget you in a short term...don't feel suprise after saw yr friendster and facebook's friend list less 1 person dy...hope you really can feel happy without my disturbing...we are stil best friend...but not the close type...anything need my help stil can find me...hope in future we don't have to argue anymore...and also both of us will be happy...

already few days i feel like i'm in a dream...floating feeling...really feels creepy...why i will have this feeling...tomorrow stil need to wake up early and go for driving's "bengkel"...can i stand it..few hour's in the room..would i have enough sleep...don't wish to have those floating feelings again...even now when i'm typing also feel like i'm in a dream....last night just went to see my childhood doctor..."Dr.Chan" she told me it's ok to have this feel...maybe it's because of my height...so when i'm lying o sitting for too long time...suddenly wanna wake up o stand up the blood can't slow that fast to my brain...that's why wil feel dizzy and some time's will have seen black out vision...that feeling is very scary...i'm scare 1 day really black out and faint down....that time i really don't know what will happen...please don't let me experience that feeling again....i don't hope to faint down then the next thing i can't see the world anymore....

8th of June 2009

last night can't sleep at all...y do i have to keep thinking that much...already told myself to forget bout her...really can't help it...can anyone else help me to clear my mind...now not suffer thinking, but suffer can't sleep too...if this continue on, i'm sure i'll be crazy in a short term...

yesterday just went out with my sisters..."姐妹" it was a fun and happy out going...when will us going out again my sisters...going out with you all really can release my stress and made me think less bout her...i can stil remember the moment we shout out what we sing at K-BOX...it was so happy to shout out...! but yesterday less 1 of our sister...if she attend too...thn it's a perfect sisters out going...=) hope she'll join us shortly...

so fast 1 week has already past....and i feel nothing at all...don't feel getting enough rest or had enough fun...after this week i'll have to wake up early to go to school again...thn i'll b waiting for your car to past by every morning again...when can i just let go and forget bout you...maybe what you told me earlier were right...maybe we should not have met each other is better...now i really understand why many people can't let go things easily...maybe human are like that...i reather born as a stupid animal...no need to think so much...and don't have the feeling so deep inside...

3rd of June 2009

today i've been thinking of you too much...i wrote tis new posting, won't know you got read or see it or not....but i hope when you saw this won't feel sorry for me or what ever...

i know that you are starting to let go bout our things...so as you are doing it, i should move on too...these kind of feeling really makes me suffer and worry bout you...i don't know how to stop it...but i'll try to...maybe now you already found another guy can love or give you what you want better than i can...but i really wish that guy will treat you better than me and also love you more than i do...although i don't really know are you in love with another guy...but i'll try my best to carry on and forget the past's realationship between us...i'm still loving you very much...1 thing i know and for sure, if we continue on be together..both of us won't be happy...i wish you could be happier rather than being sad with me...i'll still care bout you...but not lik last time i did...take care yrself...anythings happen you still can call o text this best freind of your's...i don't really know what possition am i deep inside your heart..but you'll always be the 1 i care in my heart...

beside's that...some of my freinds already know what happens to the twins...i'm also suffering the same thing as they're suffering...their parents think that i'm the one who bring them into this mess...but i'm not the one....please anyone could help me out??i don't wanna get involve on this, i don't even know how to face their parents anymore...i really don't wanna continue on like that...i wish to be happy like last time...play with their father...smile with their mother...and even go travel together...

i really don't understand why do bad things will come all together in the same time....GOD...please help me out..i'm suffering can't be with the 1 i love and even hang out with my best friends like usually we did..i wish this is only a dream...please wake me up...if u saw i'm sleeping on my bed....NOW! NOW! PLEASE HELP ME OUT! I NEED TO OUT OF THIS HORRIBLE DREAM! T.T

my left and right hand's finger nails...

2nd of June 2009

it has been so long since i update my blog...school holiday starts...bt i feel nothing at all...is it been a lot of things been going on??need to find it out quick...

since it's a holiday...i'm oso goin to be crazy like usual...i've painted my nails BLACK...long time didn't do that....try to act like my favourite idol....MARILYN MANSON...but not too much...many people said he looks scary....so i also don't wanna copy too much of he's style....=)

31th i just went out with her again...we watched movie lik usual..."Night At The Museum part 2" it's quite funny...but i don't think she enjoy it much...maybe also not in a good mood....wish next time we go out, she'll enjoy herself...

lookin foward to the camp...on tis FRI 5th - SUN 7th of June...but there is something i need to do on FRI....so need to confirm with my 2 other friends..."THE TWINS" it's about my driving license..so anoyed by that...

today feeling moody...and get angry easily...feel very sorry to those who has just scold or react with such bad temper...hope tomorrow will be better...

that's it for today....hope i'll have the mood to update my blog soon...sorry for those who are waitting for my update...